Pill Shaming

We need to stop shaming people who take tablets to help there Mental Health. You wouldn’t mock someone for taking a tablet because of their physical health, would you? If someone has asthma, you wouldn’t say that they don’t need an inhaler, so why would we mock someone for taking anti-depressants to help them get better?

I have and still am being pill shamed every day of my life. My brother ridicules me for taking medication to help me feel better. He constantly tells me that man-made drugs are shit and they get you hooked on them to pay more and more to the government. My brother hates me for taking pills because he cant see nothing wrong with me so he thinks it nothing. We constantly get in conflicts over this as he wants me to come off them. Why should I come off something that is helping me get better?

I don’t like taking tablets. Why would I like pumping drugs and chemicals in my system that change chemicals and functioning of my brain? It’s not a fun experience to go through. That’s something a Doctor won’t tell you either, how dependent you can become on your tablets and how much of a lifeline they can be with you. If I forget to take mine one morning, I can feel the effects. My body is freaking out, craving them again. That’s bad, I know that’s bad. For now, though, its what I will go through to get myself steady and stable.

Understand me please, understand why I take what I do.




I hate change. It’s something that I cant deal with too well, and that’s why I haven’t been active recently. My summer has been full of change, some for the good, others for the bad but I’m just going to focus on the positive.

I was able to step on a bus multiple times a day without having any fear, and with little discomfort being around other people. Something that might be simple for someone else but is incredibly difficult for me. I rehearse the lines of where I am going in my head to speak to the driver over and over and think of every question they could ask me to have the correct answer. Finding the correct seat on the bus as I don’t particularly want to speak or sit next to anyone else due to my personal space issue. Just the simple things.

I quit smoking finally! I have now been vaping and it has made such a good change for me in my life. I have to thank my youth worker for pressuring me into this, as if not for her I would not be doing what I am now, giving up something that destroys me.

I walked into my new college and spoke to various staff members without having one panic attack, nor an overwhelming feeling of Anxiety. This is my biggest change of all of them, as I don’t like being thrown in the deep end. I honestly feel like I’m happy over this, that I have found my little happy place, and that makes me so good and happy.

Sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed and rearranged to relocate us to the place we are meant to be.

~ MonstersLivingInMyMind~


Hello Everyone!

I saw this online, and I wanted to share it with you.

~ It’s completely acceptable to stay alive for tiny reasons. Because you want to hear your favourite song one more time. Because your dog will miss you. Because the moon is just to pretty not to see again. Because you havent seen the next season of a really good tv show. Beacsue you want to see the Christmas lights this year. If your alive, your doing enough. If your surving, Im proud of you.~

There are many more reasons, and I wanted to share some of mine with you. I want to see what my beautiful cousin be born in April 2017. I want to see what my first summer with my boyfriend will end up like. I want to meet more of family, learn about them, see different people. I want to see what Zane will grow up to be like.

You have reasons to stay alive, no matter how big or small they are, you do have at least one reason. Find that one reason.

~Monsters Living In My Mind~


Hello Everyone!

Kooth is an online counselling website which helps you deal with not just mental health, but just someone to talk to about any problems you may have.

I think it is for people in England only and under 25, but please don’t quote me on that! And it is easy as 1-2-3. You sign up, you don’t use your real name, and everything is secure and confidential.

Features include message boards, articles, and a 1-1 chat. Although, not a 24/7 service, they provide good times of when they open their chat lines, but the website is open all the time.

You go into the chat, wait until someone comes free and you chat to them about how you feel. A great service, in my opinion, if you want to check it out, here is the website ~ https://kooth.com/ ~

Even if this helps one of you, that’s my job done.

~Monsters Living In My Mind~