What goes around come back around. That’s the expression, I think. If you do good, good things will come to you. If you do bad, bad things will come to you. I used to believe in all this. Now, though, my heart wants me too, but my brain just says no.
My mum tells me I have a heart of gold, my dad tells me there is not a bad bone in my body, my friends say to me that I couldn’t hurt a fly. So what does Karma think, because so far, I have had nothing but bad luck from it.
I give and give and give, but why do I get nothing good back? This is not me trying to big myself up, this is just what I see and feel. I volunteer for Girlguiding UK, I am a volunteer for Young People Cornwall, and volunteer at my community services. I attend college, I don’t pick fights, if someone is hurt or needs help, I’ll be there, but yet I’m here with nothing.
So come on Karma, tell me, what else do I have to do? I give to charity, I have a kind and open heart to help anyone who needs it, and I try not to hold grudges. People piss me day in day out, but I still smile at them, pretending that I don’t care. So tell me Karma. Come on. I want to hear what else I need to do.
I will give my heart out to everyone and anyone, bu I don’t get anything back except a bucket tonne of Mental Health shit.
~Monsters Living In My Mind~