Secrets of self-harm, we all have them. People don’t realise that self-harming is a way of control. I am terrified of losing control, so by self-harming I’m gaining that control back.
When I was younger, I always thought, why would you want to harm yourself? It’s such a crazy idea that you would think that hurting yourself makes you feel happy. But it does. It makes me feel happy because I gained my control back.
The scars aren’t romantic, media makes it out that if you self-harm you are beautiful. I’m sorry, but self-harming isn’t pretty, blood, cuts and scars are not beautiful, they are part of my life.
It is an addiction, one that takes time to recover from.
~Monsters Living In My Mind~