‘Just keep fighting, you can do this’ ‘I won’t give up fighting’ ‘Fighting to the last breath’
But I’m tired of fighting. I want to give up. Saying these quotes won’t change my whole mind, the mind that is constantly having a battle with.
I will be truthful, I had given up for a while, and having another break from fighting. Fighting is tiring, you lose energy even if it is just in your head. I lay in my bed, just letting the depression take over me, the suicidal thoughts overflow me, the self-harm control me.
After a big fight, people are out of breath, they are worn out. Having a battle in your head, its exactly the same. I will keep on fighting, but at the moment, I need a time out.
It maybe 2 days, 2 weeks, or 2 months, but ill gets back to fighting when I can.
~Monsters Living In My Mind~