I thought it would be nice to do an updated version of my life. I gave you an introduction when I first started this blog, but that was awhile ago now, and things have changed!
Well, the exciting news is …. I GOT A LIFE. Joke. I will never get one of them, but I have got a someone I would like you all to meet, this is Rhys, my boyfriend! Yes that is right, this single girl is now in a relationship, and boy o boy is she happy 😀 With my life turning to shit, I thought I would never meet anyone, especially with my new diagnoses, but I have and he treats me like a princess. I will do a dedicated post to him like I did for Rhi!
I am now with my Community Mental Health Team, and have a care plan and everything. I will admit, I did have a mental breakdown when they all wanted to help, as I survived on my own for so long, but I’m glad they are in my life. I am being referred to lots of people to get the help I need.
There is a downside, though, I have got worse. ‘But Chelsea, how do you get worse when you are getting all this help?!’ I have no fucking idea!!! I think it’s the fact that I’m not used to getting help, and I’m letting people who I don’t fully know into my life. I’m trusting them with a lot of information that I only told Nurse. (SIDE NOTE – Nurse is my friend who is also consequently called Rhiannon just like my best friend, but she is also my nurse so I just call her that to save confusion!) Trust is a 2-way system, they have full trust in me, but I don’t with them, and that is where it is breaking down.
And guess who is now hearing voices in their head..? Muggins here, which is great isn’t it?! O the beloved voices in your head, and yes before you all point we all have voices in our heads, but mine are getting particularly bad, and becoming very hard to deal with. I genuinely have full on conversations with them, like we are arguing in my head. My life is getting better every second!!
O yeah, I got admitted to a hospital by the way. I’ll save that for the next post.
So this is my current list of things wrong with me; Anxiety, Depression, Anxiety & Panic Attacks, Fasting, Bulimia, Self Harm, Hearing Voices, Chronic Appendicitis & Visual Migraines.
Welcome back to my life, make yourself at home, you might be here a while.
~Monsters Living In My Mind~