Dear Mum & Dad,
Its is your little girl here, the little girl that mum gave birth to on the sunny morning at 10.07am, on the 19th September 1998, who you decided to call Chelsea Marie Vidler. You held me close, saying that you would give me the world if you could. Your precious bundle of joy is here now, the thing you don’t know yet though, is this bundle of joy has a big medical journey ahead of her, one that she keeps secret as much as possible from you to not hurt you, because she knows how much you love her.
Mum & Dad, I might say some days that your horrible, that you never do anything for me, or that I just don’t want to live with you no more, but that is all lies. I love you to the moon and back, you said you would give me the world if you could, I wish I could give you more to tell you how much I love you.
That bundle of joy, you want to protect her from the outside world, and not let any harm come to her. That’s the thing though, I have been diagnosed with more medical problems then you more likely know. Your little girl has Anxiety, Panic Attacks, Depression, An Eating Disorder, Visual Migraines, and more likely a whole lot more to come. I know you want to take them all away from me, but that is the thing, you can’t do this for me, I have to do this one on my own. And as hard as that seems to you, it is better for me, I’m so sorry. I don’t do this to hurt you, I would never do that, you mean so much to me, sometimes though, it is better this way, maybe not for you, but most certainly for me.
Your princess is going to be 18 this year, she is going to be out in the big world and classed as an adult by law. She is growing up quicker than you want her too, you wish you could keep her small, but things change. There is always one thing though, Mum & Dad, I might be an adult from law, but I will always be your little girl no matter what.
I know you are not reading any of this, but I love you.
~ Monsters Living In My Mind ~